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Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Wow...a new record with comments!

First of all thank you to everyone for helping me hit a new record with comments :-) I decided that since it had gotten so high I should probably make a new post just to give y'all something new to read. Well that, and keep up my new habit of communicating whats going on in my head.

Its been a blur of a couple days. I saw Mr & Mrs Smith last night with the Walrus. I liked the movie. It was funny and had hot actors that were nice to look at (always a plus). To tell you the truth I was not looking forward to using the free tickets we got (for a much more entertaining explanation of why check out Sleepless Walrus) It was still a little uncomfortable to be out with the Walrus but I had a good time. I laughed for the first time in a while which is good. I am still hurt, confused, and a bit betrayed because I am not important enough to overcome the problems and keep the promises he made. Maybe I'm not being fair but thats life (or so I'm told). In the right perspective I can laugh at his corny jokes sometimes so I'm making progress I guess. I am really trying to get past it for my own peace of mind, but I don't know if I really can. I am also a bit worried because of my current state of limbo and not having a place to live or a full time job while everything seems to be working out so easily for him. Don't get me wrong, I don't wish him harm but it makes me wonder whats wrong with me?

Good news though, when I got home on Sunday night I had a random message on my answering machine saying that someone wanted to interview me. I called them back on Monday and set up an interview for Wednesday (tomorrow). I was really quite proud of myself for going for it and not talking myself out of it even though I don't know much about the job itself. I need to get over my fear of rejection and I think this is a positive first step. There is a downside (you had to know my pessimistic mind would have one). The job is in Sacramento and I still don't have a place to live. I am still trying to figure out if I should stay here, but if I do I don't know what I will most likely not be able to afford to live in Sacramento which means an hour long commute to Stockton! I am looking up in Chico which is where I initially assumed I would move to (with my parents) but there are no jobs up there and my company decided not to let me work out of the Chico office afterall. BLECH!

I decided to take next week off to get my wisdom teeth out while it is still being covered 100% with my dental insurance (yay!). Also going to try to bust out with some major packing. The days are passing quickly and before I know it the end of the month will be here. Wish me luck. I guess thats all for now. Stay tuned for a couple more blog tags that I have found in browsing the blogs.

Take care and have a great day!


HypnoKitten said...

Are you applying for any jobs in Seattle? I guarantee you it doesn't cost a million dollars to buy a condo here...

Rent is cheaper too. :)

Shan'Chelle said...

LOL! No I wanted to finish school here before I moved up there.

HypnoKitten said...

hmm.. I guess that IS a good idea... hahaha :)

Shan'Chelle said...

Yeah, the out of state tuition costs suck!