Monday, July 04, 2005
You are getting sleepy...
As you can see from the above picture, Dorito is adjusting well to her new environment and is making up on the sleep that I am missing :-). I think I am going to have to get her completely shaved. It is so frickin hot up here (for at least the next couple months) and she is panting up a storm it seems. We shaved her belly last week and it helped a bit to keep her cool but not enough. Also, she has taken to rolling in the weeds and poison oak and gets it stuck in her fur (and then she won't let me take it out). I am tired of petting my baby and hurting my had from all the stickers she has in her.
It’s been a crazy couple of days. I had to leave the apartment on Friday morning knowing that I was never coming back. I had so much trouble doing that. Luckily for me Le Morse did the majority of the clean up and took care of dropping off the keys (which I'm sure he'll post about) because I don't think that I could have handled it. I was already pretty emotional. I also owe Cjristina for all the help she gave; you're the best! Anyway, now I'm up in Chico getting settled and trying to relax. Today I realized that there might be other reasons fate has sent me here. Grandma is not doing very well at all. We had a big scare today when dad had a hard time waking her up (she fell asleep in front of the computer) and we thought we had lost her. This brought me to the realization that while my parents are doing me a big favor helping me get my life together, I might be here to take care of my mother who is absolutely going to lose it when grandma goes. We also found out that my uncle's ex girlfriend in South Dakota is in the hospital after battling breast cancer for over a year and only has a few days to live. I know that death comes in threes and have been trying to ignore the funny feeling in the pit of my stomach and the worry I have over my grandmother. I guess when she was diagnosed about a year ago the doctor estimated only a year left. We feel the clock running out and aren't nearly as prepared as we should be for the inevitable. Anyway, enough of the depressing stuff. Now that I am actually here and settling in I feel like I am in a good place. We went to the Hospice thrift store where I donated three big bags of clothes and found some self help books. With how addicted I am to these self help books you would think I would be much more mentally well myself. Maybe that is why I am so attracted to these books, because my brain is craving "normality" whatever that may be. Who knows? I was very impressed with the hospice thrift store and as they are looking for volunteers I am thinking of helping out. I'll post more about that later if I decide to do it. I am also finding myself more interested in learning things now. I pulled my guitar out of the car and was talking to my dad about it. I found out that he had always wanted to learn how to play the guitar too and I also found out that my guitar is horribly out of tune. That got me to thinking that I would really like to take a guitar class. Driving to town we went by the little "grand canyon" just outside of a town called Paradise. It was so beautiful that I wished I had a camera and then I started thinking about taking a photography class. I will definitely be looking into all of these things and any number of other things that cross my mind. I have realized that life is too short and I have to start putting myself first. It is harder for me than you can imagine :-) I guess that is all I have to say for now, hope everyone is having a happy and safe Fourth of July weekend!