Hey all, just a quick post to say hi. I had a really good weekend. I got to hang out with some girlfriends, talk to some friends that I hadn't talked to in a while. Didn't get a lot of sleep and spent too much money but it will be a while until I get to go back so I think that it was worth it. I would like to congratulate a friend of mine on the birth of his baby son Gavin. I hope to see pictures soon, and wish him the best of luck in coming to terms with the changes that are happening. I would also like to thank Cjristina, Jea9, and Liz for everything. It was really good to see all of them, and Cjristina again showed what a great friend she is. Hope she feels better soon :-) As far as the ex goes, I did see him for a bit. I am very worried about him and hope that eventually he too can come to terms with himself and perhaps open up with me again. For as long as I can remember we had a connection. I understood what was going on with him, and he was open with me (as far as I know) talking to me about what he was going through. Now, looking back, I don't know if that was ever true but was an illusion that I wholeheartedly believe. I miss that illusion. It seems that he has withdrawn from most everyone and I know he has to get through this on his own, but I do miss the connection. I discovered this weekend that as time goes by it becomes a bit easier to come to terms with the fact that the past is what it is. You can't change it, and it happened for a reason. No matter how hard you try you can not recreate the past in any satisfactory way, the only option you have is to learn from your choices and realize it will never be the same. However, you must keep in mind that the past turns into the future in ways that you never could have imagined. I still don't know how that is going to work for me, but I am looking forward to finding out more than ever before. To everyone in my past that has become entangled in my self destructive patterns, I apologize. I can't say that stepping outside my comfort zone is going to be easy but I do know that I can't go on with the way it has been. I have to do something to change my life otherwise I will lose my mind. Anyway, the story below illustrates how I've been feeling as of late. Hope you all enjoy it.
Story of the day courtesy of The StoryPeople
I can imagine it working out perfectly, I said. I can't, she said & I said no wonder you're so stressed.