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Tuesday, May 16, 2006

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DISCLAIMER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DO NOT READ FURTHER IF YOU WATCH GREY'S ANATOMY AND HAVE NOT SEEN THE FINALE.......

Ok I don't know if I am just especially sensitive or what because I have been really good lately about not letting unimportant things get to me, but tonight I am frustrated and I need to vent. I apologize in advance for the language I used to express my frustration...if such vulgar language offends you I urge you to stop reading now.

I don't count on much in life but I have come to rely on my television giving me the happy endings that I very rarely give myself in real life. The advent of "reality" t.v. has only been made bearable by the fact that most of that shit is less real then the stuff that was not claiming to be real. However, this brings us to tonights season finale of Grey's Anatomy.....Again, I warn you, I am going to tell you how it ends so if you don't want to know this is your last chance to stop.....
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Ok, enough of that. Below (because I'm lazy) is the conversation I had with a friend immediately following the show.

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shanda_panda@sbcglobal.net: do you watch grey's anatomy?
Shawn: only seen one episode will likely order it
shanda_panda@sbcglobal.net: Damn...I needed to vent
Shawn: lol i wont remember anyway
shanda_panda@sbcglobal.net: Yeah but its hard to explain if you don't know the history
Shawn: true
shanda_panda@sbcglobal.net: So theres this intern that falls for a dr at the hospital...they have a romance and at the end of last season we found out that he's married
shanda_panda@sbcglobal.net: Well she begs him to choose her and he doesn't...he chooses to "do the right thing" and try to work things out with his wife who btw he left because he walked in on her sleeping with his best friend
shanda_panda@sbcglobal.net: his wife also happens to be a dr
shanda_panda@sbcglobal.net: so all season long they are trying to all three work together
shanda_panda@sbcglobal.net: things happen and the guy won't leave her alone....he does the whole I want you then pulls away shit
shanda_panda@sbcglobal.net: well the intern sleeps around a bit after the break up because she's frickin hurting
shanda_panda@sbcglobal.net: things are going ok...she's getting better and they are actually kinda being friends
shanda_panda@sbcglobal.net: but of course that is not good enough for the fucking dr (who happens to be patrick dempsey)
shanda_panda@sbcglobal.net: When the intern starts dating his vet and he finds out he flips out
shanda_panda@sbcglobal.net: he won't talk to anyone and ends up calling her a whore
shanda_panda@sbcglobal.net: she's like fuck you I'm moved on the best I knew how because you fucking broke me go be with your wife I'm done
shanda_panda@sbcglobal.net: well tonight was the season finale and apparently that was a lie....
shanda_panda@sbcglobal.net: they were at this function (her with the vet and him with his wife) and he kept staring at her
shanda_panda@sbcglobal.net: so she excuses herself and he chases after her and they fucked!
shanda_panda@sbcglobal.net: I can't believe she fucking fucked him...
shanda_panda@sbcglobal.net: well I can because I know thats what I would end up doing but TV is not supposed to be like that
shanda_panda@sbcglobal.net: it is supposed to teach us a lesson and she is supposed to kick him in the balls and run off with her vet
Shawn: its the finale its supposed to be nervewrecking
shanda_panda@sbcglobal.net: the worst part is at the end the vet still not knowing that they did it offers to drive her home (because some other drama was going on in the hospital) and she hesitates...she stands there staring at the dr.....to be continued...what kind of crap is that! If I wanted that crap I would record my own life...
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At that point I had vented enough to blow off some steam and to release enough pent up energy to let poor shawn off the hook ;-) but now I feel the need to elaborate...

It is no secret I have horrendous judgement when it comes to love and relationships. I am no longer embarrased to say that I have been with a married man and made the wrong choice more often than not when faced with this type of decision. I wish I could say that I had come to a point where I am strong willed enough to rule my emotions so that this is not an issue in my future, but I can't...yet. What I can say is that I don't watch television to see myself on the screen (in slightly more aesthetically pleasing pictures). I am famous for wanting my endings happy, and sweet, and so sickeningly unrealistic that I say "it doesn't happen like that in real life". Is this because I'm a depressed individual who is in search of an escape from reality? Perhaps....I like think, however, that it is more that I am an optomist who needs to see examples of how its SUPPOSED TO FRICKIN WORK! If people with scripts can't get it right, how in the hell is there any hope for stupid schmucks like me? Its not that I think "oh its ok to do that because so and so on tv did it"...I am honestly looking for a little guidance in people I am not personally vested with.

Now logically I understand how the whole concept of a season finale is supposed to work. I am the first one to admit that the producers of this show are genius for hooking me in so much I blog about it. As frustrated as I am I am not even saying that the show didn't have it's desired effect...I mean it is not like I am NOT going to watch it next season (if only to watch what new and exciting ways I am going to screw up my life next).....I'm just saying that I am disappointed. I guess what I'm really disappointed with is that I'm sitting here screaming at the T.V. the right thing to do and I can not say that I wouldn't do the same thing if faced with that situation. What kind of wacko does that make me? Wait...don't answer that ;-)

Ok, I'm done. For those of you who have never seen me blog like this I am sorry. For those of you who made it to the bottom of this blog and want the last 5 minutes of your life back, tough luck...I gave you enough opportunity to run. I wouldn't have been offended...trust me, I'm used to it

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

You are so funny, Shanda! I've never seen the show, but apparently you're not alone. At the gym this morning, my Power teacher was 15 minutes late getting started because she couldn't stop venting (into the mic) about last night's episode. Is is "Mr. Dreamy" or something like that? What a laugh.

Anonymous said...

By the way, that was me...Lori. :)

Cjristina said...

Having only watched two episodes of the show...which just happened to be last night's two episodes, I understand your frustration. I've always wanted to watch it because of some of the actors but am (as you know) rarely home. I was frustrated with the quadrangular aspect. Because the Dr. wife, the Dr. husband, and the Dr./intern mistress all know what is going on but the poor Dr. Vet is the schmuck NOT knowing what's happening. Not too mention that none of them have the DAMNED honesty to say what's going on. I thought the only real comment came from Dr. Wife when she talked about how her husband and Meredith are the only two people in the entire hospital WHO DON'T KNOW THEY'RE IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER. Infedility is often played for either laughs, or for prurient smuttiness...never really deals w/ the dichotomy of shame and thrill that an affair can produce. The questioning and soul searching that comes from realizing "Hey I'm not that kind of person so WHY am I doing this?" Nor does the media ever deal with the fact that we MORALIZE fidelity when we are NOT MONOGAMOUS creatures and rarely in our history as a species can you find truly monogamous humans. We demonize sex and we confuse it with love and then people are left hanging in more ways then one. There are plenty of people who find themselves in intolerable relationships that they don't leave because of a variety of reasons...and others in the same situation leave and find happiness with someone else. Rarely do you find an easy solution but it would be nice if the entertainment world gave us a way to look at it from all angles. Also, would be nice if they owned up to the fact you CAN be in a loving relationship BUT STILL WANT MORE....not necessarily sexual. We are a species that likes to test boundaries. Just think if we had no boundaries...where we would go from there?
On a very petty, OCD type moment side note, I don't get why they all want Dr./Intern. Her hair was bugging the crap out of me and she always looks likes she's about to cry which with the exception of her dying dog she didn't really have anything to cry about. The other characters in that show we're going through some hellish moments and they didn't look all soggy.....ok, rant done. Should've called me...you know how Shawn is...he can never take a side even when it's fictional.
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See you this weekend.